1 00:00:17,290 --> 00:00:19,090 This is it. It has begun. 2 00:00:19,450 --> 00:00:20,450 God. 3 00:00:21,710 --> 00:00:24,110 I hate this place. 4 00:00:24,930 --> 00:00:25,950 This is bad. 5 00:00:26,230 --> 00:00:29,810 I gotta get out of here. This is feeling like the toughest thing I've ever done 6 00:00:29,810 --> 00:00:32,490 in my life. I guess I'm officially tapping. 7 00:00:32,850 --> 00:00:37,750 Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh. I'm finding all kinds of water in my tent. 8 00:00:38,010 --> 00:00:41,210 I believe I hear neighborhood residents. 9 00:00:41,610 --> 00:00:42,650 There's a bear outside. 10 00:00:43,110 --> 00:00:45,670 Get out of here! 11 00:00:48,040 --> 00:00:49,920 Who are you when everything's been split away? 12 00:00:51,400 --> 00:00:54,720 Gary out here in Eastwood. 13 00:00:55,040 --> 00:00:59,420 I have not had a serious meal in a week. If I can't get a player, then I can't 14 00:00:59,420 --> 00:01:00,079 stay here. 15 00:01:00,080 --> 00:01:02,420 It's always in the back of your mind. Well, I could tap out. 16 00:01:03,020 --> 00:01:04,540 Putting up with a filming booth? 17 00:01:04,819 --> 00:01:07,520 Running into a predator. It's not an if, it's a when. 18 00:01:07,840 --> 00:01:10,500 Get the hell out of here. I see you. Get out of here! 19 00:01:10,950 --> 00:01:12,710 I'm living a hand-to-mouth existence. 20 00:01:12,910 --> 00:01:13,910 Yes! 21 00:01:14,130 --> 00:01:17,070 $500,000 is a lot of money. It's just going to keep getting harder. 22 00:01:17,310 --> 00:01:20,030 It's not the world that needs to change. It's me that needs to change. 23 00:02:00,720 --> 00:02:02,320 Rained like a son of a bitch all night. 24 00:02:04,180 --> 00:02:06,420 I woke up this morning to, Mom! 25 00:02:07,220 --> 00:02:08,220 Mom! 26 00:02:09,280 --> 00:02:10,280 Mommy! 27 00:02:11,120 --> 00:02:12,240 And I woke up. 28 00:02:12,940 --> 00:02:13,940 I'm looking around. 29 00:02:15,520 --> 00:02:17,360 It was the geese flying in. 30 00:02:19,340 --> 00:02:25,900 There you go. 31 00:02:27,980 --> 00:02:29,640 Thought my girls were waking me up. 32 00:02:33,790 --> 00:02:37,270 Today, the rain slowed down a little bit, but I know it's going to get worse. 33 00:02:37,990 --> 00:02:44,350 I already set up a fire shelter, like a place that I can count on having a fire 34 00:02:44,350 --> 00:02:45,350 every day. 35 00:02:46,830 --> 00:02:47,830 Something that's dry. 36 00:02:49,930 --> 00:02:55,130 So, I'm going to take this here ridge pole. 37 00:02:56,450 --> 00:03:01,970 I'm going to carve in a couple notches into this tree. 38 00:03:02,720 --> 00:03:06,840 And this tree, kind of like a divot notch. And so I can wedge it into the 39 00:03:06,840 --> 00:03:09,520 tree a little bit and then tie it down with some fish string. 40 00:03:11,360 --> 00:03:18,260 What I'm most scared of is after the adventure, after this is all done and 41 00:03:18,260 --> 00:03:21,360 we all go home, I'm scared of what's next. 42 00:03:22,140 --> 00:03:26,520 It's like, what's the next thing that's going to capture you the way this has 43 00:03:26,520 --> 00:03:27,520 captured me? 44 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:30,840 You know, when I was home, 45 00:03:32,720 --> 00:03:37,000 My mom brought up the fact that there is gypsy blood in our line. 46 00:03:39,160 --> 00:03:41,040 Maybe that's where I get all this from. 47 00:03:42,320 --> 00:03:46,240 The need to run, the need to go all the time. 48 00:03:47,480 --> 00:03:49,360 Change of scenery, change of pace. 49 00:03:50,480 --> 00:03:51,480 A new adventure. 50 00:03:56,240 --> 00:04:00,720 I want to tell my kids that you can do anything that you want to do. I want to 51 00:04:00,720 --> 00:04:01,720 raise. 52 00:04:02,530 --> 00:04:04,690 strong women in this world. 53 00:04:07,990 --> 00:04:12,730 Then I'm going to pull my tarp over, five foot up, and then maybe out. 54 00:04:14,550 --> 00:04:15,550 Check it out. 55 00:04:16,410 --> 00:04:18,810 If you think you can do it, try it. 56 00:04:19,170 --> 00:04:21,190 If you want it, go get it. 57 00:04:21,410 --> 00:04:24,830 I think that that's a huge lesson, especially for my daughter. 58 00:04:45,160 --> 00:04:46,560 Our journey this morning begins. 59 00:04:47,420 --> 00:04:48,420 Yay. 60 00:04:53,400 --> 00:04:57,460 I do things a little differently. Whereas most people are probably sitting 61 00:04:57,460 --> 00:05:02,960 around surviving, I want to keep active to try to stay sane. 62 00:05:03,280 --> 00:05:07,700 I'm going to explore the area a little bit and go from there. 63 00:05:08,500 --> 00:05:12,840 It's kind of ingrained in you in the military to just constantly go 100 miles 64 00:05:12,840 --> 00:05:13,840 an hour. 65 00:05:16,490 --> 00:05:21,050 You are prepared for what's going to happen. You know a lot about what's 66 00:05:21,050 --> 00:05:21,649 going to happen. 67 00:05:21,650 --> 00:05:23,910 I was in the Army for about 15 years. 68 00:05:24,170 --> 00:05:25,310 Recently got out. 69 00:05:25,790 --> 00:05:30,490 For the majority of that time, I was either a sniper or working down at the 70 00:05:30,490 --> 00:05:31,490 sniper school. 71 00:05:31,950 --> 00:05:34,830 There's a huge suicide epidemic in the veteran community. 72 00:05:35,450 --> 00:05:39,910 I started noticing some of my friends that had gotten out of the military, and 73 00:05:39,910 --> 00:05:43,570 they were having a real hard time transitioning into civilian life. 74 00:05:44,060 --> 00:05:48,680 I came up with the idea of taking guys out on hiking trips. I think there's a 75 00:05:48,680 --> 00:05:53,800 connection with nature there that can be really helpful, and to me, that's what 76 00:05:53,800 --> 00:05:54,800 keeps me going. 77 00:05:55,220 --> 00:05:59,500 All the years in the military, if you have one thing, it's going to be this. 78 00:05:59,720 --> 00:06:05,780 So I have two blades. I have one just regular, and then the other one is 79 00:06:05,780 --> 00:06:06,780 serrated. 80 00:06:07,160 --> 00:06:10,780 Being in the military, you still have people around that kind of keep you 81 00:06:10,780 --> 00:06:13,160 going, and you have a mission and a purpose to do together. 82 00:06:14,120 --> 00:06:15,640 So you still have that human interaction. 83 00:06:16,680 --> 00:06:23,000 Very few people have ever gone out by themselves, completely shut off from 84 00:06:23,000 --> 00:06:27,340 everybody. For me, going out in the middle of nowhere, completely reliant 85 00:06:27,340 --> 00:06:31,540 upon myself, it is that challenge that I've always wanted to put myself 86 00:06:31,540 --> 00:06:32,540 through. 87 00:06:34,080 --> 00:06:38,680 I'm going to head into the woods. I'm going to be looking for signs of some 88 00:06:38,680 --> 00:06:39,700 sustainable food. 89 00:06:40,140 --> 00:06:41,140 You never know. 90 00:06:41,680 --> 00:06:43,100 I feel like if you... 91 00:06:43,950 --> 00:06:49,510 Sit in one place, you might miss a whole lot of stuff. 92 00:06:54,310 --> 00:06:55,350 I have a duck. 93 00:06:56,550 --> 00:06:59,430 I have a little duck that's hanging out. 94 00:07:01,390 --> 00:07:05,050 I don't know. I might leave him. Depends on how hungry I get. It might be dinner. 95 00:07:22,090 --> 00:07:26,830 The bird up there is either trying to tell me something or trying to tell 96 00:07:26,830 --> 00:07:28,090 everybody else that I'm here. 97 00:07:44,090 --> 00:07:47,370 Life alone on Vancouver Island. 98 00:07:48,590 --> 00:07:52,150 My goal is to be out here for the entire year. 99 00:07:52,650 --> 00:07:57,770 So it's survival of the city. 100 00:07:58,250 --> 00:08:03,710 I spent eight years teaching pilots and air crew members how to survive behind 101 00:08:03,710 --> 00:08:07,370 enemy lines. You know, if they got shot down, what would they do to survive? 102 00:08:08,830 --> 00:08:13,730 Once you get the shelter and the water figured out, firewood and food. 103 00:08:14,780 --> 00:08:17,980 I plan to eat some seaweed this morning. 104 00:08:19,640 --> 00:08:25,260 I want to show you the different kinds of foods there are on the beach. 105 00:08:25,620 --> 00:08:30,840 There's this type of seaweed, seagrass. 106 00:08:31,140 --> 00:08:34,460 You eat down at the base where it's white. 107 00:08:36,460 --> 00:08:38,000 And it is quite sweet. 108 00:08:38,460 --> 00:08:39,460 Very good. 109 00:08:40,159 --> 00:08:42,039 I believe also you can... 110 00:08:44,330 --> 00:08:45,590 Eat the rhizome. 111 00:08:52,590 --> 00:08:58,170 And that's very sweet as well. Kind of like candy. I mean, it's so sweet. 112 00:08:58,750 --> 00:09:05,030 Bull kelp has this long tail that goes 113 00:09:05,030 --> 00:09:11,830 down and around and way off out 114 00:09:11,830 --> 00:09:12,830 there. 115 00:09:14,280 --> 00:09:19,400 You can eat the vine as well. 116 00:09:22,580 --> 00:09:28,040 Normally you slice it into little rings, and then you cook it. 117 00:09:36,600 --> 00:09:38,220 I'll have salt water that time. 118 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:41,940 So that is breakfast. 119 00:09:43,329 --> 00:09:46,010 And it looks like we've got low tide. 120 00:09:46,790 --> 00:09:49,890 So I'm going to go ahead and try and put up my gill net. 121 00:09:52,930 --> 00:09:56,390 So I've got this freshwater creek flowing into the cove. 122 00:09:57,630 --> 00:10:00,450 I'm going to put my gill net right out in front of it. 123 00:10:01,150 --> 00:10:04,170 Perhaps that's the best place to put it. I'll find out. 124 00:10:04,870 --> 00:10:09,790 Every day, that low tide, high tide transition, I'm going to look forward to 125 00:10:09,790 --> 00:10:11,230 going out and checking my traps. 126 00:10:13,000 --> 00:10:16,840 I really hope I get a fish in there tomorrow. 127 00:10:20,640 --> 00:10:26,600 Looks like we should get out the tennis rackets and start playing tennis, right? 128 00:10:27,620 --> 00:10:32,280 I'm going to go walk, see if I can find some more edibles this morning. 129 00:10:34,060 --> 00:10:35,780 There's my seaweed spot. 130 00:10:49,260 --> 00:10:50,260 My goodness. 131 00:10:51,660 --> 00:10:52,960 Check this out. 132 00:10:54,620 --> 00:10:57,140 It's a very large pile of bear poo. 133 00:10:59,140 --> 00:11:00,140 One. 134 00:11:02,460 --> 00:11:03,460 Two. 135 00:11:05,360 --> 00:11:06,360 Three. 136 00:11:08,640 --> 00:11:11,160 Four. That's still steaming. 137 00:11:12,380 --> 00:11:13,380 Five. 138 00:11:14,140 --> 00:11:15,140 Six. 139 00:11:17,640 --> 00:11:18,840 I've got friends already. 140 00:11:19,380 --> 00:11:21,580 And I thought I was going to be alone out here. 141 00:11:42,560 --> 00:11:46,340 I've been looking around through the woods. 142 00:11:46,860 --> 00:11:50,340 I have to look for the most sustainable food source. 143 00:11:50,660 --> 00:11:54,720 And I'm not seeing too much as far as wildlife signs. 144 00:11:55,800 --> 00:12:00,580 I don't see really any scrape marks on a 145 00:12:00,580 --> 00:12:03,820 tree I just walked across. 146 00:12:04,960 --> 00:12:10,920 We're going to start heading down to the beach, see what we can find down there. 147 00:12:26,440 --> 00:12:31,960 The biggest thing I'm seeing right now, as far as resources go, is the inlet, is 148 00:12:31,960 --> 00:12:35,960 what I'm thinking, that most of my food is going to come out of the water. 149 00:12:37,180 --> 00:12:42,260 I don't see my little duck friend. I've got a duck that hangs out over here. See 150 00:12:42,260 --> 00:12:43,260 if we can find him. 151 00:13:01,710 --> 00:13:04,550 My duck somehow dead. 152 00:13:14,150 --> 00:13:15,370 It's pretty weird. 153 00:13:16,510 --> 00:13:18,330 I'm not sure what the hell killed this thing. 154 00:13:22,090 --> 00:13:25,390 There's no bite marks, no blood. 155 00:13:25,670 --> 00:13:27,050 I don't see any tracks. 156 00:13:30,350 --> 00:13:31,790 So this is a pretty big decision. 157 00:13:32,530 --> 00:13:39,370 On one hand, if something killed this thing that somehow infected the meat, 158 00:13:39,530 --> 00:13:44,730 and I don't cook it well enough, and I get sick, that sucks. 159 00:13:46,330 --> 00:13:51,150 On the other hand, if I get rid of it, because I can't leave it here, because 160 00:13:51,150 --> 00:13:55,010 all it's going to do is attract cougars and bears, more than likely a cougar. 161 00:14:00,110 --> 00:14:01,110 I'll get rid of it. 162 00:14:01,770 --> 00:14:02,950 It's getting rid of a lot of meat. 163 00:15:04,490 --> 00:15:05,810 So I've made my decision. 164 00:15:08,250 --> 00:15:09,370 I'm not going to eat it. 165 00:15:10,830 --> 00:15:16,430 That kind of sucks. I was really hoping this dude was going to give me food when 166 00:15:16,430 --> 00:15:21,250 I really needed it and not have to waste food when I don't. 167 00:15:27,810 --> 00:15:28,810 All right. 168 00:15:30,910 --> 00:15:31,910 Mr. Duck. 169 00:15:32,970 --> 00:15:33,970 Nice knowing you, bro. 170 00:15:35,410 --> 00:15:38,450 And take care. 171 00:15:39,950 --> 00:15:42,670 Do you have duck funerals? Is that a thing? I don't know. 172 00:15:43,330 --> 00:15:47,550 Anyway, we're going to throw this dude out into the bay. 173 00:15:48,630 --> 00:15:55,110 Hopefully he'll get drug away and not wash up on my beach again. That would 174 00:15:55,110 --> 00:15:56,110 suck. 175 00:15:58,930 --> 00:15:59,970 Yeah. Bye. 176 00:16:01,270 --> 00:16:02,270 Bye, duck. 177 00:16:09,390 --> 00:16:15,830 Wasting food is a huge thing because you're running on minuscule calories. 178 00:16:16,370 --> 00:16:17,770 It's pretty disheartening. 179 00:16:18,030 --> 00:16:23,430 But the risk of me potentially getting sick from some crazy bird flu or 180 00:16:23,430 --> 00:16:26,290 whatever this thing died from, it's not worth it. 181 00:16:44,360 --> 00:16:51,300 So here's a little bit of my hemlock 182 00:16:51,300 --> 00:16:52,300 tea. 183 00:16:56,800 --> 00:16:58,460 I have big plans for today. 184 00:16:59,400 --> 00:17:00,560 Food is a priority. 185 00:17:03,160 --> 00:17:04,319 I'm not a fisherman. 186 00:17:05,180 --> 00:17:09,220 And the ocean is super abundant. There's tons of fish in there. 187 00:17:09,460 --> 00:17:11,520 I just haven't figured out how to catch them yet. 188 00:17:13,600 --> 00:17:17,760 So I need to go to what I know, which is the land. 189 00:17:19,760 --> 00:17:23,819 Every single year, my dad, all my uncles, my grandpa, we would basically 190 00:17:23,819 --> 00:17:27,099 go up to our cottage that we have in northern Michigan, and we would go out 191 00:17:27,099 --> 00:17:29,700 hunting, and, you know, it was always just, like, so much fun. 192 00:17:34,220 --> 00:17:35,660 Here he is in the senior picture. 193 00:17:36,280 --> 00:17:37,280 We're going to miss him. 194 00:17:38,660 --> 00:17:42,530 I think just as a young man, I was just... Not knowing what I wanted to do 195 00:17:42,530 --> 00:17:46,990 with my life, I know that I loved being outside. I sort of had just a very, very 196 00:17:46,990 --> 00:17:48,650 strong connection to the natural world. 197 00:17:49,490 --> 00:17:52,970 Just being outside in nature does a lot for my spirit. 198 00:17:54,610 --> 00:17:56,110 So how long do you think you're going to last? 199 00:17:57,270 --> 00:17:58,270 Last one standing? 200 00:17:58,750 --> 00:17:59,750 Hopefully. 201 00:18:00,550 --> 00:18:03,110 I've never really been a conventional type person. 202 00:18:04,010 --> 00:18:07,350 Currently, and for the last eight years, I've been working for a survival school 203 00:18:07,350 --> 00:18:08,350 in southern Utah. 204 00:18:08,730 --> 00:18:10,310 teaching sort of primitive skills. 205 00:18:11,090 --> 00:18:14,810 And this is a huge test for me. You know, this is sort of like a culmination 206 00:18:14,810 --> 00:18:19,410 of all of the years of training, like all of the books that I've read, all of 207 00:18:19,410 --> 00:18:21,690 the going out and doing it and getting in the dirt time. 208 00:18:21,910 --> 00:18:26,570 I want to look back on this experience and 10, 15, 20 years from now. And I 209 00:18:26,570 --> 00:18:29,870 want to say like that experience definitely propelled me and helped me 210 00:18:29,870 --> 00:18:31,610 grow and made me a better human being. 211 00:18:35,639 --> 00:18:38,240 Experiences like this don't really come along that often. 212 00:18:39,020 --> 00:18:42,760 Being able to procure food, I mean, is going to be the difference between me 213 00:18:42,760 --> 00:18:46,620 staying like a couple of weeks and me staying a couple of months. So I'm going 214 00:18:46,620 --> 00:18:47,620 to set up some traps. 215 00:18:50,900 --> 00:18:53,320 So these traps are super, super simple. 216 00:18:53,820 --> 00:19:00,040 Great for a game ranging from a mouse to 217 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:02,020 maybe a rabbit. 218 00:19:02,700 --> 00:19:09,020 Dead falls themselves can be used to take things as large as a bear. 219 00:19:10,580 --> 00:19:11,900 That'll loop around there. 220 00:19:12,720 --> 00:19:16,100 The weight of the rock will be here. 221 00:19:18,840 --> 00:19:21,080 So the rock will be pressing down on this. 222 00:19:21,980 --> 00:19:28,940 And then there'll be a bait stick, which is running from your toggle 223 00:19:28,940 --> 00:19:35,140 to... the end of the rock or the end of the log or whatever you have. 224 00:19:35,560 --> 00:19:40,680 So what will happen is a creature will come up, pick off that bait stick. 225 00:19:41,440 --> 00:19:48,340 That will cause the trap to trigger and then the rock to 226 00:19:48,340 --> 00:19:50,020 fall and collapse on the animal. 227 00:19:50,860 --> 00:19:56,320 So it's actually a very humane way to kill it. 228 00:19:59,980 --> 00:20:03,540 In the forest, there aren't really any rocks. 229 00:20:04,060 --> 00:20:05,960 So I have to make do with what I have. 230 00:20:06,680 --> 00:20:11,900 And that's probably like, you know, 25, 30 pounds of forest. 231 00:20:12,660 --> 00:20:13,800 So a pretty good amount. 232 00:20:14,900 --> 00:20:17,440 And we'll see, maybe I can get something by the morning. 233 00:20:19,220 --> 00:20:20,760 This place is very beautiful. 234 00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:25,900 If you could live just off beauty, then you'd be pretty full here. 235 00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:28,560 But unfortunately, 236 00:20:29,550 --> 00:20:34,570 we need food to survive i need to figure out this food situation 237 00:20:34,570 --> 00:20:39,310 i don't know if i'll have the energy to do this 238 00:21:03,050 --> 00:21:08,130 What I intend to do is head over right away before the tide comes up and makes 239 00:21:08,130 --> 00:21:14,110 it more challenging and difficult to get over to the gill net, check and see if I 240 00:21:14,110 --> 00:21:15,110 have a fish. 241 00:21:18,310 --> 00:21:19,550 There's the gill net. 242 00:21:19,930 --> 00:21:23,510 I really hope I get a fish in there. 243 00:21:24,090 --> 00:21:29,450 I see something dark out there, and, man, it looks like a fish. 244 00:21:29,920 --> 00:21:33,600 Holy moly, it is a fish. Look at that. Thank you, Jesus. 245 00:21:38,940 --> 00:21:40,120 Any more? 246 00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:43,880 Oh, yeah. 247 00:21:45,080 --> 00:21:46,800 There's a halibut. 248 00:21:47,060 --> 00:21:50,020 There's another fish right there. 249 00:21:50,840 --> 00:21:56,360 Three fish. Man, today has just been a stellar day. Three fish. 250 00:21:56,620 --> 00:21:58,440 Come on. Thank you, Jesus. 251 00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:04,280 I don't intend to eat all three fish. 252 00:22:04,820 --> 00:22:10,840 I think I'd get sick from eating that much. I intend to cook them, 253 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:14,280 and then I'll bury it nearby here. 254 00:22:15,820 --> 00:22:20,960 The only thing that could make this better is if I was in a restaurant 255 00:22:20,960 --> 00:22:22,560 eating this with Barbara. 256 00:22:25,200 --> 00:22:27,680 If you were going with me, we could share body heat. 257 00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:32,180 Without you to help heat, I need this much bigger bag. 258 00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:36,340 Barbara is just this kind, compassionate woman. 259 00:22:36,560 --> 00:22:40,880 I am blessed that she loves me and likes being married to me. 260 00:22:43,240 --> 00:22:48,360 Before I went in the Air Force, my two brothers and I, when we were 8, 9, and 261 00:22:48,360 --> 00:22:50,560 10, we were sent to an orphanage. 262 00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:54,040 I got kicked out when I was 15. 263 00:22:54,900 --> 00:22:58,840 Those are really, really painful memories. 264 00:22:59,920 --> 00:23:03,080 I have three children. I'm a grandfather by three. 265 00:23:03,440 --> 00:23:06,760 When my daughter passed, she was only 10 years old. 266 00:23:07,380 --> 00:23:13,280 That's going to work on me. And so my main motivation is I want to prove to 267 00:23:13,280 --> 00:23:18,880 myself that I can deal with my painful past and hurtful history. 268 00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:25,040 Just know that in those situations where I'm alone, without Barbara, those 269 00:23:25,040 --> 00:23:29,320 memories are larger than they are ever at any time. 270 00:23:32,120 --> 00:23:37,020 You know, it's work, and I hope that I can get through the tough times. 271 00:23:43,000 --> 00:23:44,840 That fish is on the plank. 272 00:23:45,680 --> 00:23:46,680 There'll be... 273 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:52,180 lean days and at that time i'll have these fish laid up in my hole in the 274 00:23:52,180 --> 00:23:59,120 ground refrigerator i've got them stacked one on top of the other and 275 00:23:59,120 --> 00:24:04,440 i've got that moss on them and that seaweed from down below and maybe mask 276 00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:10,680 the smell the temperatures are are cool enough here that it'll keep for two days 277 00:24:10,680 --> 00:24:15,760 but i don't think it would keep for longer than that hopefully that'll be 278 00:24:16,520 --> 00:24:20,340 There for me tomorrow morning and some bear or animal hasn't dug it up. 279 00:24:24,540 --> 00:24:27,320 I'm completely relieved. 280 00:24:28,200 --> 00:24:30,380 My gill net caught three fish. 281 00:24:30,620 --> 00:24:32,720 Hallelujah. Give me more. Give me more. 282 00:24:33,240 --> 00:24:36,420 I am going to be eaten like a king out here. 283 00:25:02,350 --> 00:25:04,290 Well, my trap was triggered last night. 284 00:25:05,790 --> 00:25:10,430 I can't believe this. 285 00:25:11,390 --> 00:25:12,390 Nothing. 286 00:25:12,990 --> 00:25:14,750 It's both a good thing and a bad thing. 287 00:25:15,090 --> 00:25:17,890 It's a good thing because they triggered the trap. 288 00:25:18,250 --> 00:25:21,650 It's a bad thing because I'm definitely running pretty low on fuel. 289 00:25:23,810 --> 00:25:26,130 I haven't really eaten any meat. 290 00:25:27,330 --> 00:25:28,570 Just some mushrooms. 291 00:25:29,330 --> 00:25:30,330 That's about it. 292 00:25:37,260 --> 00:25:39,040 I'm so disappointed in myself right now. 293 00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,060 But I can't let it get me down. 294 00:25:45,340 --> 00:25:46,380 I have to adapt. 295 00:25:46,880 --> 00:25:52,120 And that's really the name of the game of survival is just adaption. So 296 00:25:52,120 --> 00:25:57,320 hopefully this works. 297 00:25:59,680 --> 00:26:00,680 So I don't know. 298 00:26:00,980 --> 00:26:04,360 I got to try something now. I got to try to make a living off the sea. 299 00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:09,180 I mean, I just need to take advantage of as many food sources as I can. 300 00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:11,800 I need to have my gill net out. 301 00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:16,020 One thing doesn't work, then try another thing. And if that doesn't work, then 302 00:26:16,020 --> 00:26:17,020 try another thing. 303 00:26:18,620 --> 00:26:24,300 The land will show you and it'll teach you what you need in order to live out 304 00:26:24,300 --> 00:26:29,300 here. But, you know, if you're not open to it or if it doesn't want to show you, 305 00:26:29,400 --> 00:26:30,400 then it won't. 306 00:26:39,820 --> 00:26:42,520 Maybe I just need to be doing something now. 307 00:26:47,220 --> 00:26:50,880 I've got to get my beach working for me. If I don't start catching fish, I'm 308 00:26:50,880 --> 00:26:53,080 gone. So I have a pretty big problem. 309 00:26:53,380 --> 00:26:54,500 I can't believe this. 310 00:26:54,980 --> 00:26:56,260 And I can't stay here. 311 00:27:19,630 --> 00:27:24,070 Now I need to do the rest of my home here. I got to get the rest of this 312 00:27:24,070 --> 00:27:28,510 protected. And so I just, I got to get after it here or I'm going to be 313 00:27:28,510 --> 00:27:29,510 screwed. 314 00:27:29,650 --> 00:27:35,930 When it rains really bad, I get all this stuff that goes inside my tent. 315 00:27:36,230 --> 00:27:40,310 And being in this environment, your bones get cold pretty quick. 316 00:27:40,590 --> 00:27:43,170 So I was thinking about making a front door. 317 00:27:44,130 --> 00:27:47,070 If I do that, I can stay out here as long as I want to. 318 00:27:49,669 --> 00:27:52,590 It's going to take a log and go across here like this. 319 00:27:55,570 --> 00:27:57,430 So that covers that pretty good. 320 00:27:57,790 --> 00:27:59,970 And I can still kind of see out if I need to. 321 00:28:00,790 --> 00:28:03,550 It's not great seeing out, but it's a little bit at night. 322 00:28:04,590 --> 00:28:11,450 If I go to about here, then I hang a lot of those ferns off of here. 323 00:28:12,110 --> 00:28:14,350 They're long, and they'll go all the way down. 324 00:28:14,730 --> 00:28:18,450 The ferns act like shingles on a roof, with the hopes. 325 00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:23,060 that when it rains, it sheds off instead of inside of my tent. 326 00:28:23,360 --> 00:28:24,800 Trying to see what's going on here. 327 00:28:25,620 --> 00:28:26,620 See that? 328 00:28:26,940 --> 00:28:28,960 I'm just tying her up like this. 329 00:28:31,120 --> 00:28:32,720 Kind of weaving her in there. 330 00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:35,120 Nice and thick. 331 00:28:37,700 --> 00:28:44,460 The better my house is, the warmer I am, the safer I am, the drier I 332 00:28:44,460 --> 00:28:47,460 am, the happier I am. 333 00:28:48,780 --> 00:28:51,060 Put a few more in there. We'll call it good. 334 00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:54,600 Look. 335 00:28:59,660 --> 00:29:02,020 And I put it up here like this. 336 00:29:02,880 --> 00:29:03,880 Pull it. 337 00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:05,120 Wow. 338 00:29:07,620 --> 00:29:09,340 Not too shabby. 339 00:29:10,760 --> 00:29:13,640 I can still see out. See what's going on. Hello. 340 00:29:40,430 --> 00:29:41,430 I always look angry. 341 00:29:41,650 --> 00:29:42,650 Why is that? 342 00:29:46,270 --> 00:29:48,650 I'm not an angry guy. 343 00:29:49,410 --> 00:29:50,730 I just look that way. 344 00:29:53,950 --> 00:29:57,410 I'm happy to be here. So why, when I look at my freaking face, 345 00:29:58,730 --> 00:30:01,970 do I always look like I'm about to punch somebody? 346 00:30:04,270 --> 00:30:06,290 I very rarely punch anybody. 347 00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:13,480 Who are you when everything's been stripped away? 348 00:30:15,020 --> 00:30:21,180 When everything you've relied on to have a sense of life or purpose or meaning is 349 00:30:21,180 --> 00:30:22,180 gone? 350 00:30:23,360 --> 00:30:25,760 How long can you live with yourself by yourself? 351 00:30:28,040 --> 00:30:31,840 And as a divorced man, I guess I'd be figuring out that answer. 352 00:30:34,500 --> 00:30:36,380 I am leaving behind my three kids. 353 00:30:37,060 --> 00:30:39,560 I'm going to miss you guys, all three of you, terribly. 354 00:30:40,240 --> 00:30:41,460 I wish I could take you guys with. 355 00:30:42,440 --> 00:30:43,440 No. 356 00:30:43,580 --> 00:30:45,340 You haven't literally wiped your butt with moss. 357 00:30:46,440 --> 00:30:50,940 I was a pastor for 15 years in Brazil as a missionary. And my three kids have 358 00:30:50,940 --> 00:30:53,620 been through so much. All the different things that have gone on in the last 359 00:30:53,620 --> 00:30:56,360 couple of years. You know, the divorce and moving back from Brazil. 360 00:30:56,700 --> 00:31:00,200 It's all been difficult to bear up under. Are you sure you want me to do 361 00:31:00,200 --> 00:31:01,200 this? Dad. 362 00:31:01,600 --> 00:31:03,960 This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 363 00:31:04,500 --> 00:31:08,060 Your whole life has been building up to this, I feel like. If anybody deserves 364 00:31:08,060 --> 00:31:11,220 this, it's you. If anybody's prepared for this, it's you. 365 00:31:11,660 --> 00:31:13,800 I am not married. I do not have a girlfriend. 366 00:31:14,160 --> 00:31:16,620 I am as free as a man can be at this moment. 367 00:31:16,940 --> 00:31:20,420 Knowing that I have their support and the fact that I am a Christian, I am a 368 00:31:20,420 --> 00:31:22,260 believer, I think it will be a strength. 369 00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:23,940 You're going to do great, Dad. 370 00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:29,680 I've been through all kinds of stuff in my lifetime, and when I look back on it, 371 00:31:29,740 --> 00:31:33,480 I think, I wouldn't be the person that I am now if I hadn't gone through that. 372 00:31:39,540 --> 00:31:43,480 In terms of immediate survival, you know, fire, shelter, water, I think I've 373 00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:44,239 got that. 374 00:31:44,240 --> 00:31:46,080 I could stay here until I starve to death. 375 00:31:46,560 --> 00:31:50,240 But I've got to crack the code of beating myself out here. I just have to 376 00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:51,240 do that. 377 00:31:53,020 --> 00:31:57,500 I've got to get my beach working for me, which means I'm going to try and set out 378 00:31:57,500 --> 00:31:58,500 a trot line here. 379 00:31:59,190 --> 00:32:01,230 One line with a bunch of hooks on the end. 380 00:32:02,210 --> 00:32:05,090 I've got some of that green rope that I salvaged. 381 00:32:09,210 --> 00:32:13,150 And these are going to form the base of my trout line. 382 00:32:13,910 --> 00:32:17,230 I think I can put four hooks on this, maybe three. 383 00:32:18,530 --> 00:32:20,350 I should have baited these after. 384 00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:36,660 I want fish. 385 00:32:38,520 --> 00:32:40,820 What are the odds of me catching fish on that? I have no idea. 386 00:32:41,360 --> 00:32:45,720 But if I can't make this cove produce food, I won't make it. 387 00:33:04,590 --> 00:33:06,010 All right, I'm turning in for the night. 388 00:33:06,510 --> 00:33:09,310 I'm just feeling some heart sickness. 389 00:33:09,910 --> 00:33:14,230 It's a mild pain. It's not like excruciating. It's just a low-grade 390 00:33:14,230 --> 00:33:19,670 feeling in my chest. And maybe I was 391 00:33:19,670 --> 00:33:25,210 responding to something I ate, you know, all this new stuff that my body's not 392 00:33:25,210 --> 00:33:26,210 used to. 393 00:33:26,630 --> 00:33:32,570 But I don't think it's that. I think I'm just thoroughly, thoroughly missing 394 00:33:32,570 --> 00:33:33,570 Barbara. 395 00:33:35,340 --> 00:33:41,700 I felt this kind of heartache when I was in the orphanage. 396 00:33:43,040 --> 00:33:49,760 And on Christmas, they would gather the boys around and 397 00:33:49,760 --> 00:33:51,080 open presents. 398 00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:57,460 And they never did call my name because there wasn't a gift for me there. 399 00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:04,560 And I remember going to bed that night and the heartache. 400 00:34:07,280 --> 00:34:09,040 It feels like that now. 401 00:34:10,400 --> 00:34:15,780 They don't call this alone for no reason. 402 00:34:18,420 --> 00:34:19,460 Miss you, baby. 403 00:34:22,139 --> 00:34:23,360 My heart's heavy. 404 00:34:54,409 --> 00:34:55,670 Coming out to check my trot line. 405 00:34:56,909 --> 00:34:58,390 So much for a sunny day. 406 00:35:04,230 --> 00:35:07,390 Somebody over there is getting a sunny day, but not me. 407 00:35:13,410 --> 00:35:16,650 I've got four hooks in the water, and that's a good thing. 408 00:35:17,850 --> 00:35:18,910 I'm banking on fish. 409 00:35:24,850 --> 00:35:26,170 That's the catch of the day. 410 00:35:27,790 --> 00:35:29,810 Some kind of gnarly-looking seaweed. 411 00:35:30,750 --> 00:35:32,590 I've got to fix this thing and rebait it. 412 00:35:40,610 --> 00:35:43,570 That was kind of depressing. I pulled it up, I got caught with seaweed, and I 413 00:35:43,570 --> 00:35:44,570 lost one of my hooks. 414 00:35:48,870 --> 00:35:51,990 All the crabs were gone off my hooks, though, so whatever... 415 00:35:53,440 --> 00:35:54,640 Something down there likes crabs. 416 00:35:58,160 --> 00:36:00,860 When you don't have anything to eat, you feel like you have nothing to show for 417 00:36:00,860 --> 00:36:01,860 all that you've done. 418 00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:07,000 If I don't start catching fish soon, I'm gone. 419 00:36:22,320 --> 00:36:23,860 So I have a pretty big problem. 420 00:36:25,100 --> 00:36:29,880 I can't seem to find my ferro rod. 421 00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:38,820 Yesterday, after I got the fire, I usually set 422 00:36:38,820 --> 00:36:41,520 it aside and then put it right in my bag when I'm done. 423 00:36:43,360 --> 00:36:45,800 I was really tired yesterday and so... 424 00:36:52,140 --> 00:36:55,920 I don't remember putting it in my bag, and it's not in there now. 425 00:36:56,320 --> 00:37:01,940 But I was able to sort of rewind the footage 426 00:37:01,940 --> 00:37:08,940 from yesterday, and I can see the footage yesterday right 427 00:37:08,940 --> 00:37:10,280 when I got the fire. 428 00:37:10,980 --> 00:37:17,780 I set the ferro rod down, and it rolled down the fire pit into the 429 00:37:17,780 --> 00:37:18,780 fire. 430 00:37:20,780 --> 00:37:23,680 So now I'm just sifting through the fire pit. 431 00:37:24,300 --> 00:37:27,340 I don't know what happens when a rod cuts in a fire pit. 432 00:37:28,360 --> 00:37:29,520 Does it just burn up? 433 00:37:30,220 --> 00:37:31,220 I don't know. 434 00:37:32,780 --> 00:37:34,220 I hope I can find it. 435 00:37:38,400 --> 00:37:40,460 There's no way I can be here without a fire. 436 00:37:42,340 --> 00:37:43,540 I can't believe this. 437 00:37:46,100 --> 00:37:47,180 It's not here. 438 00:37:48,020 --> 00:37:49,320 Nothing you can do about it. 439 00:37:57,100 --> 00:38:00,340 And if I can't get a fire, then I can't stay here. 440 00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:08,520 It's really as simple as that. 441 00:38:37,160 --> 00:38:38,160 Day seven. 442 00:38:39,900 --> 00:38:41,020 This is my girl. 443 00:38:42,140 --> 00:38:43,200 Say good morning. 444 00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:44,700 Good morning, Bowdoin. 445 00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:48,060 Good morning, happy Greta Tuff. 446 00:38:48,360 --> 00:38:49,720 Aw, isn't she cute? 447 00:38:52,220 --> 00:38:53,220 Cute. 448 00:38:56,780 --> 00:38:59,400 Bowdoin. She's giving you attitude. See that? 449 00:38:59,680 --> 00:39:00,680 Hello. 450 00:39:02,760 --> 00:39:06,660 So today is Greta's side. Put a picture out. It's Greta day. 451 00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:10,320 I flip them over every day. 452 00:39:10,660 --> 00:39:14,760 So one day I'll be Bowdoin on the front, and then the next day is Greta on the 453 00:39:14,760 --> 00:39:15,760 front. 454 00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:17,160 I'm extremely thirsty. 455 00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:20,420 My goal this morning is going to be to get a fire started. 456 00:39:21,200 --> 00:39:23,140 Fire must happen today for me. 457 00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:25,640 I'm going to be a thirsty cat. 458 00:39:27,880 --> 00:39:31,880 You got to raise my girls to be smart and strong. 459 00:39:32,960 --> 00:39:33,960 Strong is huge. 460 00:39:34,820 --> 00:39:38,440 Life is so short. You got to get out there and live. You got to listen to 461 00:39:38,440 --> 00:39:41,600 music and you got to dance and you got to love. 462 00:39:41,860 --> 00:39:43,800 My God, we're all going to die someday. 463 00:39:44,020 --> 00:39:45,020 And then what? 464 00:39:45,040 --> 00:39:46,260 What do you got to say for yourself? 465 00:39:46,600 --> 00:39:50,240 You got up and drink coffee at the same coffee shop every day of your life? What 466 00:39:50,240 --> 00:39:51,240 kind of a life is that? 467 00:39:52,020 --> 00:39:54,960 I want my daughters to have that sense of adventure, you know? 468 00:39:55,260 --> 00:39:59,580 And they just feel like, yeah, I can do that. I can go there and be that and see 469 00:39:59,580 --> 00:40:01,280 that. Thank you. 470 00:40:01,660 --> 00:40:04,520 Thank you, fire gods, for giving me fire. 471 00:40:09,020 --> 00:40:13,720 Just when you're just about to run out of hope, 472 00:40:14,260 --> 00:40:18,320 you just keep plugging away, folks. 473 00:40:18,840 --> 00:40:20,780 Just keep working hard. 474 00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:23,680 Never give up. 475 00:40:24,220 --> 00:40:26,080 Only give up, only stop. 476 00:40:27,300 --> 00:40:31,880 When your heart says stop, but never give up because the challenge is hard. 477 00:40:43,000 --> 00:40:45,840 Does it literally take everyone else to fly on a certifier? 478 00:40:46,420 --> 00:40:47,580 Is it just me? 479 00:40:48,020 --> 00:40:50,200 It must be just me. It's got to be just me. 480 00:40:55,240 --> 00:40:58,360 I can't lift my thumb. I can't lift my thumb. I can't lift my thumb. 481 00:40:58,720 --> 00:41:04,260 I don't know how deep it is. 482 00:41:10,400 --> 00:41:13,940 I'm so disappointed in myself right now, but I can't let it get me down. 483 00:41:15,460 --> 00:41:19,080 When you're out here in the woods, it's just amazing how hard everything is. 484 00:41:21,880 --> 00:41:22,880 Come look at it. 485 00:41:23,750 --> 00:41:24,750 Getting collarbone. 486 00:41:25,330 --> 00:41:26,850 I heard like a crazy noise. 487 00:41:28,510 --> 00:41:29,510 It's a bear. 488 00:41:30,410 --> 00:41:36,490 It's like a whining and a huffing and a sniffing right here at the back of my 489 00:41:36,490 --> 00:41:37,490 head.